Job Leon

Episode 3/23/2024 - in transition of weaning off antidepressant. Description: Tough, strange, unique, scary as I try calming my breathing.  Feeling airway tightening. Must calm down, relax and concentrate on slow and deep breaths. Have been feeling this lack of energy and not wanting to do anything! Can’t seem to concentrate on my communion paper. It’s all there just need to put together! Why can I not get into it?  Have no desire. What is going on? Is this depression? Just want to stay in bed and pj’s?  I lay down and a strong “thought” flashes. Bad headache, also feeling “cabin fever” so I drive to gym. Gotta stay focus. Gotta get out of here… Body and mind in turmoil. No peace. Is this spiritual warfare?  Father, I belong to You alone. You are MY God and I need YOU. 3/24/2024 Palm Sunday and the LORD is entering into the city, one last time. Stayed in bed until 1pm. My mind and body feels energized. Looking forward to working on “communion paper.” Father, what are you trying to teac

Oh I have a praise report!  As I said before, it was a tough last year in 2023 filled with physical struggle & stress. The long covid journey was long and difficult. But like any journey with God, you will have the Good, the Bad and the Blessing. God, was near and He walked with me in this time of wilderness.  Why did God want me in the wilderness?  I know that it was for the benefit of my soul, for my good as I drew closer and to receive my portion of His blessings. I can look back now and see how He walked with me, the marvelous things that He revealed, and the glorious times that we spent together up on the mountain. This was a different kind of a “mountain top experience.” I understand better, that cloud of confusion, fear and doubt that was over me. Is this what Israel experienced? God was calling me to higher ground and a deeper walk. There at the mountaintop He opened scriptures and opened my eyes, so that I was able to see Him.  Wow, what an amazing journey, where I meet wi

True story of this week’s conviction. Okay 3/28 surgery has been cancelled! Feel better now that I am being obedient to You O Lord. Father, I am sorry for wanting once again to have my way, even when You had already answered my prayer and said “NO” to this surgery. LORD, I ask You to not only forgive me, but to teach me again, that to You, “Obedience is far better than Sacrifice,”  Amen As for me, Father, I am reminded when Your Holy Spirit warned me a long time ago of sin in my life AND You even had a sister in the Lord confront me about that sin that I was not ready to let go.  I was rebellious, foolish and stubborn in wanting my way, and You let me have my own way, after the Holy Spirit had been striving with me for a long time to bring me out from this sin,  You are an Amazing, Loving and Gracious God that saved me from this sin AND did not allow me to die in it!  This is what happened when I did not listen to the Holy Spirit and I got my way; (1) I ended up back in Egypt AND (2) I

Matthew 13:52 “Then Jesus added,  “Every teacher of religious law who becomes a disciple in the Kingdom of Heaven is like a homeowner who brings from his storeroom new gems of truth as well as old.” Here we can see that if we are called to “teach” we then need to study both the New Testament (NT) as well as the Old Testament (OT). The OT gives insight to the heart of God from the beginning. Although, you may say that the OT is not necessary for us today, this is not true! Just as God is the same yesterday, today and forever; His Word, both the OT and the NT is the same and it is for today! Hebrews 13:8 “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever” If you are not able to share the whole truth of the Word, then you lack God’s understanding and wisdom. You are not serving God’s people in the manner that God has intended for His sheep to be fed. Do you read a storybook to your child and begin the story from the middle and take it to the end? When at work do you present the entir

Dianna Yahhhhh!! You’re going home. Camila gets to go home.  Dad Now it’s starting to hit me haha Dianna lol good but you got this bro and it takes a village so just call and we are all here for you guys. You’re a natural bro. Grandma Hey little grasshopper, it will get better now that everyone is home. You guys can relax now. Just call, we are here! Dad First bed time story … Grandma  I was surprised as to how much birth delivery has changed.  So many new procedures, instructions, a baby metal detector (so baby isn’t taken from hospital). And some things never change! Such as breastfeeding, hospital food and the sheer joy and excitement of a baby coming into our world. Truly our God is an Awesome God … Soon this will be Grandma .. ha ha  

Well Son, you are no longer my little man but rather a man who was raised in the ways of the Lord. Your perspective and your actions will be contrary to the ways of this world. This is a good thing, and it will let you know that you are on the right path! Your focus will now change from all about “me, money and what I want” to … what is best for us. Your hearing as you pointed out will also change. The things that you once heard and listened to will not be as important as what your family needs are and what they are saying to you. The words of your wife and child will be much more useful, helpful and of more value to you. Your sense to protect and care will be heightened because this is the role that is meant for you as the head of your home. I know that you will become a wise father and good husband, because your Heavenly Father has been your example since birth. Live and walk in the ways that you were taught as a child and pass those things of Faith onto your children. Continue on th

You want to learn about a man’s perspective of becoming a parent? You see things in a different light and with a new responsibility to not only your wife but family.  You realize that the role God had bestowed upon you is not a glamorous role but one built on necessity.  When your child cries it takes everything out of you just to be patient and not run to their aid. You rather comfort them from afar by either rocking their crib or in our case, reassuring them through everyday actions in life.  But the major correlation is the voice. The voice of a parent to their child is known, but is also peaceful as well as calming. Simply by your voice your child instantly becomes comforted.  While I have yet to experience the opportunity to use my voice to pour wisdom into our child, the peace and safety brought to them just by a voice is amazing to witness.  You begin to understand why God, with many ways to contact you, will use a small still voice. The reason is because in the mists of this cr

Dear Camila, well it’s 11pm on Thursday, 3/7/2024 and it seems like you are getting ready to make your grand entrance! Both Dad and Mom are exhausted and anxious to meet you! Since 1am this morning you have been making your way down and out. Today at 3pm your parents and grandparents came to Queen of the Valley Hospital in West Covina where they found out that Mom was @ 5cm. Wow, since then you have been busy! At 7:30pm I arrived at the hospital and went in to see your Mom and Dad. Wow, they have had a long day and both look very anxious, scared, excited and tired - all the wonderful emotions that only parents would understand. I could hear your heartbeat and your Aunt Marlene and Grandma along with your Auntie Di were there in the room already. O what joy is in the air along with the anxiety of waiting.  At about 9pm the doctor came to help you by breaking your water bag. It helped to move you down somewhat.  Now at 11pm I went back in to check on you and Mom. But you are at 9cm and n

Heard a beautiful message by an older Spanish speaker teaching us how Jesus considered the calling of the 12 apostles. She began with Luke 6:12-13 NLT “ One day soon afterward Jesus went up on a mountain to pray, and he prayed to God all night.   At daybreak he called together all of his disciples and chose twelve of them to be apostles.  Jesus went away to pray to God all night and in the morning He had chosen the 12 apostles. I am sure that Jesus as He prayed, would have also been watching each disciple as He was praying about calling them for His purpose. He watched, saw and heard their behavior, their  character, their prayers and He knew their heart. We know that Judas Iscariot was among the 12. Did Jesus make a mistake? The speaker took us to  Acts 1:16-17 NLT “ Brothers,” he said, “the Scriptures had to be fulfilled concerning Judas, who guided those who arrested Jesus. This was predicted long ago by the Holy Spirit, speaking through King David.   Judas was one of us and shared